Mama Mary’s Blessing
The Philippines is celebrating the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. It is considered a public holiday and a Holiday of Obligation. Meaning, as Catholics we are obligated to attend mass. On this very holy day, I received a blessing.
Exactly 2 years ago, from today I had a pleasant surprise. A big pink + in the pregnancy test stick. Josh and I, we were not ready for that kind of surprise.
I will not play the “saintly” card here and say my mind didn’t consider abortion. I did. I thought about it. In the end, I knew I had to have the baby. He was mine and God gave him to me for a reason. Looking back it sends shivers down my spine even remembering of thinking about it. Also, don’t you think it was too big a coincidence that I knew about my pregnancy on the Feast of the Immaculate Conception? Mama Mary was telling me something. That I should not be scared. I should be strong for my child, like her.
It was weird because a few days after I knew I was having a baby, I had “threatened abortion”. I had spotting and I was really scared. Mama Mary was watching over me thru those times. I know it and I am forever grateful.
On my very first check-up…I saw my baby for the first time, i felt like crying. He was our blessing. It was beginning to sink in, we were having a baby.
Joshua or Ozzy @ 7 weeks. My little peanut.
It was a shock to say the least for everyone especially my sister who recently told me she was not able to sleep the day she knew. Surprisingly, everyone took the situation as what it was and accepted it without all the drama.
Joshua, our son, is now almost 17 months. He is the source of joy in our household. Now, I could not even imagine my life without him. Sure, it would have still been happy, but it would not have been complete. Motherhood is a gift and once you become one, you become a different person.
I was once a selfish person. Not caring for others and how they were. Motherhood has changed me. Everything is reduced to essentials. I could say I am a better person now. I am still me, but better. Definitely.