Have you ever felt like you’re bound to do things greater than what you are actually doing? It’s weird, I am accomplished being a supermom to my boy and a superwife to Josh but at times, I feel like it’s not enough.
I have this dream of doing something big, but what? I don’t know that yet.
Maybe it’s just birthday jitters. I am turning 25.
A quarter of a century old.
Did I accomplish anything? Am I the person I’ve imagined when I was little girl?
I am not that girl I’ve imagined but I am better. But in a different way. To be perfectly honest; I never thought I’d have kids. I didn’t want to have kids. I hated how they were noisy & unruly in malls & churches.
But God had a plan for me. I was blessed. And I embraced it.
My life took a 360 degree change.
If you asked me 5 years ago I would have said at 25 I’m going to be single, fabulous & carefree. I would spend all my money on traveling and clothes. I will be out every weekend & my life will be perfect.
Fast-forward to the present, I am still Fab (hahaha don’t get me wrong!) but it’s different now. Change of priorities. Change of mind-set. I never think of ‘myself’ as me anymore, its myself+2. Any decisions would involve careful consideration of my little family.
And, surprisingly, I am really happy. Not the happy i-am-drunk-at-a-party happy, but happy, fulfilled & contented.
I cannot think of my life without my little family! Of course its not perfect, certainly not a bed of fluffy roses! It takes a lot of sacrifice. work. money. effort to make it work, but at the end of the day. Lying in bed thinking back. I would never change anything.
I had a blast when I was still single, I was Ms.PartyGirl. But I’ve changed. Life is definitely going to be better.